If I’m honest, I’m not quite sure how I’ve got through today…
Started the day with intervals which was great, I know moving my body is good for me both physically and mentally so was on an exercise high for a few hours afterwards but soon I had a bit of an energy crash.
Due to being unable to do the work I planned to do over the weekend I feel totally on the back foot this week and constantly working to catch up, I hate this feel as it makes me feel like I’m drowning!!
It’s not often that I envy other people’s lives as I love my life and do what I can to make the most of my life, however, seeing people going on holiday this week to sunnier climates as it’s half term here in the UK has made me quite envious. What I’d give to be able to sit on the beach in the sunshine with the only thing to worry about is what drink or food I’m going to have next off the menu and which bikini I will wear tomorrow.
I know that I don’t give myself enough downtime, this is part down to necessity in some respect as I need to earn money to live but I also think that it goes deeper than that and is rooted in how I value myself and whether I believe I deserve or am worthy of time off or not. I’ve been brought up to think that working hard is a measure of success, this is not always true but I do struggle with this latter and something I want to sort out.
This is the last week that I’m working full time at the uni so hopefully next week I can get some order back into my days and get back on track with work for the business.