I had booked myself into the gym this morning but woke up and realised that it would be too much of a rush for me to go and then get ready at the uni like I usually do as this semester my lectures start at 9am, especially today when we were in a different location to usual which meant that I had to be ready to leave my desk earlier. So I got up, cancelled my session and did a home workout instead with the kit I’ve got at home, I really like doing home workouts as it’s so convenient and to top it all off as I was running around where I live, not only did a witness a beautiful sunrise but also a full double rainbow!! What an amazing way to start the day and week.
My lectures with my students were great today, when they are all on form and engaged with the material they are great sessions, their personalities shine through and they work well as a group.
Once I got home, I had a quick call on Skype with my mum (and dad in the room, joining in occasionally), I don’t really speak to them much, every 2/3 weeks and at times the conversation is hard as I really don’t know what to say to them, I live quite a quiet life and don’t have much news to share as well as feeling like I’m failing at life as don’t live up to their expectations of what my life should be! I’m used to it now as I’ve had it all my adult life but still hurts if I’m not in a good place mentally. I know this is going to sound horrible, but when I finish the call all I can think is thank god that’s over and that I don’t have to speak to them again for a few weeks!! I love them dearly but they aren’t part of my daily life and often don’t make me feel good about myself or my life so why would I put myself through that if I don’t have to.
Usual evening routine of food, tellybox, blog post and bed!