Went to Intervals this morning, the first time at the gym this week! Was pretty tough but I did it!
Got home at about 8.30am and my parents had just gotten up, so we had some breakfast and watch some tellybox.
Mum decided that she was going to mow the lawn, although as she is used to a petrol mower I didn’t feel comfortable with her using my electric one in case she ran over the cord, so in the end, I ended up mowing the lawn as she did some weeding! To be honest, I much prefer the garden being wild as now with the lawn mown it looks soul-less but I wouldn’t have got any peace from her if I had said that.
She is so judgemental and critical of how I live my life and constantly makes digs about stuff, this hurts a lot as I always thought your parents should love you unconditionally but that’s not the case for me! I simply don’t live up to her expectations (she is in her late 70s and can’t understand why I’m not married with kids, I can’t understand that either!!). I’m just willing the hours away before they leave so I can get back to living the life I want without her comments.
Only 2 more days and they will be gone and hopefully, I won’t have to see them again for about 6-8 months! Some people might think that I should be grateful that they come and see me but I’m not, they make me feel like shit with their judgements & comments, I’m at a time in my life when I’m having to deal with their parenting through therapy & support from friends and quite frankly I could do without it.