Cancelled my interval session this morning, not because I didn’t want to go, quite the opposite really which is a turn up for the books, however, I needed to get some work done before an appointment at 9am so in this instance work trumped working out.
It kind of sucks, especially as I’ve just got some of my exercise mojo back recently but ultimately without me doing the work, then there are no funds to have a gym membership so it’s a sacrifice I am willing to make sometimes. As my financial situation continues to improve I know that in the future I won’t have to hustle as much for every £ of income.
Today, I had a reminder of the ageing process which makes me realise that something I’ve dreamed of for a very long time, ever since I was a little girl is very unlikely to happen in the way I thought it would or if ever! This is extremely painful for me emotionally and I’m in the process of going through a grieving process because of it. Most of the time I keep myself busy so I don’t get a chance to think about it but there are days, like today when the stark reality of a situation hits me like a tonne of bricks and I’m totally floored by it.
I love being a nutritionist and the support & help I give to people but the downside to it is that you understand in quite a lot of detail how the body works therefore when things change in the body you know why which can be hard to deal with both physically and mentally. I know my body is changing and the body clock is ticking pretty loudly right now and it makes me sad for what might have been.